bokongmu

Lekuk itu tertera jelas.
tanpa lengkung-lengkung yang tak diperlukan.
Tidak tebal, tapi jelas padat.
Porsinya pas dalam sebuah raup.
Huft... ternyata hitam bukan buatmu.
tapi kelabu tua, itu balutanmu.

Mks, 28 sep 2017

seperti yang lain, kamu pun percaya
pada kehendak ilahi dan janji yang sakral.

seperti yang lain, kamu masi mengira
akan menyiangi risau dan membajak cita
pada lajur masa kita.

seperti yang lain, kamu siap dibuahi.
seperti yang lain, kamu ingin dinafkahi.
seperti yang lain, kamu selalu menambahkan tapi.
seperti yang lain, kamu asah setajamnya iri.

seperti yang lain
seperti yang sebelumnya
seperti yang lalu terjadi
kamu bubarkan kita.

Mks, 27 sept 2017

Hector & the search for happiness (2014)

Prof. Coreman :
"We should concern ourselves with not so much the pursuit of happiness, but with the happiness of pursuit."

Mks, 24 sept 2017

death is not something to be afraid of. 

disabled is.
alive but unable to act, to think, to feel, 

is more frightening than death itself.

Mks, 14 sept 2017

sepertinya selamat tinggal tidak cukup buatmu.
aahhh... tapi itu pun bukan kata yang ingin kuucap.
mungkin terima kasih? semoga sukses?
jangan kau tuduh aku melupakan,
walau uzur memang sudah menunggu di halaman.

kau tahu?
ingatan itu sebentuk pertemuan.
maka bersiaplah, berdandanlah.
jangan lupa kenakan lesung pipitmu,
supaya masih bisa kukenali lagi.

Mks, 8 jul 2017

disequilibrium? atau apatis?
bukan!
ini kebas!
baal!
mati rasa!
sensori masih menangkap nyata,
tapi otak menihilkan makna.
luruh sudah sensasi berakal,
tergerus sepi.
disorientasi.
entah yang mana sumbu tersisa,
terlalu lama beranyam euforia dan fantasi,
mungkin sudah lenyap dikunyah jeda,
mungkin ada nostalgia sebelum mati.

Mks, 13 sep 2017

Muntah

sesekali butuh merasa sesak
supaya kata bisa berserak
karena gumam dan mimpi hanya mampu meredakan
tanpa mampu menyembuhkan.

sesekali biarkan jadi bubur
supaya iklas tak sekedar kata penghibur
karena sesal seharusnya menetap di sebuah penggalan waktu.

Mks, 27 ags 2017

they had each other, at least that is what they think.
she was his first and he was hers.
then, time flies and brings their marriage along.
love becomes dry and no more flame on bed.
they think they have tried everything and finally fed up to each other's rejection.
there is only one vivid conclusion:
a separation,
but it is the word that only flies in air

because none dare to speak.

like one sage said, if there's something to fight for,
then it is something to fight against.
be it oneself or the other.

Mks, 27 ags 2017

*inspired by film Fare (2016).

about KP

You've been thinking about it.
Dragged yourself off the world.
Stamped guilty and imperil without consent.

I know you're drugged.
That despair has poisoned you well.
And long.
Too long till i couldn't tell if i would see you again.

Please don't give up.

Life isn't cheap i know that,
but three souls ain't a bonus.

Yea i hear you're believing in hell now.
Cos heaven's abandoned ignoramus like you.
But did you know?
Hell was too small for both of us.
So let's go doing our heaven:
laugh till drunk for our badluck
and talking bullshit under moonlight.

Mks, 30 jul 2017

Ga usah terlalu baperan !!!
Hidup itu cuma keusilan tuhan. Kadang keplesetnya di tangga mal, kadang pas kebelet masuk wc, eee... ada orang lagi jongkok. 

Kadang juga, pas senengnya dapet THR, dapet juga bonus. Ada tuh, yang niatnya minta beliin baju, malah ditagih lamaran.

Kalo udah begitu mah, ketawain aja nasib sendiri. Dipikir mulu malah cepet keriput, tua aja belom. Apa yang udah didapet, disyukurin aje. Tuhan tuh cuma maen capcipcup kembang kuncup, pas giliran elo, gue ketawain. Pas giliran gue, gue temenin elo ketawa.

Mks, 27 jun 2017

post mopping syndrome

Because perfection belongs solely to the Almighty, any relationship among and production made by its imperfect creatures will always be imperfect, regardless any efforts made, any sincere acts, any impartial laws.

Acceptance, tolerance and creativity are the highest achievement in the nature of imperfection.

Mks, 23 jun 2017

Adakah milik kita?
Dari semua yang kamu simpan,
yang bisa membuatku merasa harus di sini.

Apakah hanya rasa?
Terus mengombang-ambing kita dalam bimbang,
dan kau masih yakin inilah terindah.

Mks, 23 jun 2017

Mr. Holmes (2015)
1:21:46 Holmes :
"Our time together was fleeting.
...
Yet her death made me see, that human nature was a mystery, that logic alone could not illuminate.
...
Never had I felt such an incomprehensible emptiness within myself.
Only then did I begin to understand, how utterly alone I was in the world."

Mks, 18 juni 2017