(this is a personal theory of personality. i made it. it just came across my mind and i've been wondering if it might be true. )


one's basic trait might be the fundamental reason of one's all behavior. such basic trait will be discovered only if one understand oneself and being honest to oneself.
in case of myself, it is fear. my fear is the truly basic of all of my choices, my decisions, my needs, my interests. i've just realized it in a moment where i didn't find any answer nor reason of the path i've been walking on. probably there's no explainable reason like this fundamental trait can explain my past and present situation, feeling and thought.

banda aceh, 17 may 2008