what if love is a sacrifice,
would you still seek? would you still hold onto memory?

if love is found in pain,
how much tears will you deserve? how many pain will you carry?

if to love means to leave,
will my mails still be read? will my hello be replied?

and when i'm tired of love,
just tell me it's alright.

@mks, 24 jan 2016

i am waiting an appointment to come.
she spoke of her story.
of which she let me know her passion and her dissapointment.
as if she dragged my presence into her past.
a convenient chat of two adults.
none needs to know where each stays.
neither the masks each wears.
a promise that we both said
was someday we should meet.

@jl. s. saddang, mks 20 jan 2016

re-visit the thought of death.
would it be an awfully big adventure?
im not sure peter knows it.
his thought of death was merely giving up happiness and faith.

@jl. s. saddang, mks 16 jan 2016

been days in sleepless nite.
get up so late and feel so tired.
no packs i didnt spend nor drink i didnt drain.
led zeppelin still fails driving me to rest.
i guess my life is just another mess.

@jl. s. saddang, mks 16 jan 2016

permainan ini tanpa aturan.
takkan kalah pun tak bisa menang.
hanya lega atau kecewa.
kejujuran diukur dari repetisi
dan kesetiaan berarti persinggahan tak terungkap.

@jl. s. saddang, mks 16 jan 2016

apa yang menarik dari
perempuan berambut panjang tergerai
dan berkaos putih casual
tanpa jejak bedak dan perona pipi?

tau yang bikin lebih menarik ?
ternyata dia tidak lagi lajang.

@mks 13 jan 2016

kucoba berteman dengan pembenaran.
sebenar ucap janji nikahmu.
sejujur perselingkuhan kita.
sepahit aib di wajah ibumu.
dan hak asuh yang tak kau dapatkan.

@mks 9 jan 2016

bila cinta pernah belabuh,
maka di angin yang tepat, ia berlajar.
dan rindu pun tumbuh.
pada detak dan desir, ia menggeram
supaya ingatan jangan mati dulu.
dan pada rasa,
ia katakan jangan tumpul.

@jl s. saddang, mks 9 jan 2016

Men were boys. And once in their life, boys dreamed to provide unconditional love.


(© photo is of the owner; not me)

barter

Kita adalah sebuah percakapan.
Hanya saling mengisi detik luang dalam hari.
Berbekal kejujuran dan percaya.
Bersepakat untuk tukar tutur,
mungkin bibir,
mungkin dekap,
mungkin tak bersua.

Mks, 12 des 2015

Kita hanya bertukar kata.
Saling menaburkan segenggam rasa.
Kita tahu kita takkan pernah jadi kita.

Mks, 27 nov 2015

tong sampah

Bicaralah padaku tentang apa saja.
Ungkap saja kemurkaanmu.
Buang saja kekecewaanmu.
Biarkan getir dan pedih luruh di air mata.
Supaya kamu sadar, hidupmu tak perlu diakhiri hari ini.

Mks, 17 nov 2015