regret

why the fuck did i do dat same mistakes again and again?
harrassing is not a good habit. in some cases, it could become a type of gun to defend oneself. but if it is used against one who is innocent.... it would be a terrible mistake.

for the last 60 days, i have done that stupid action twice to two different persons.
to the first person, i apologized. she is luckily a nice person. she didn't say she forgives me, but i can sense that she has forgotten my stupidity; i was mislead some words that could be interpreted as a harrastment.
what makes me guilty is that at almost the same time, she had been harrassed too, verbally, i think.. she didnt mention. i just feel guilty that i know she have had a hard time through it and i do that to her again.

the other person is also a nice one. a though, proactive, well-built, simple woman. we had a one nice sharing at some afternoon. sat down and had a couple of cold-milky soda water few days before. i think i get too hard teasing her... and once again, i accidentally misspoken. i didnt mean to, i just want to have another nice conversation again.

so stupid.