the first time is always difficult

last week discussion with Potan and Oddie @ Cibubur.

started with 'being honest to yourself'. Po said that he had had an interesting experience. he had not been honest to himself in order to respect somebody's feeling; but unexpectedly, his chat mate had accused him for not being honest, hiding his true feeling. as Po expressed to us, 'being not honest to oneself is horrible enough, but when you'd been not-honest to hide your feeling about something and get accused, that's more horrible'.

well, it's always difficult anyway to face the reality that doesnt fit in our expectation, especially when we have too much expectation and has done much to make the expectation real. aside from unexpected reality, doing for the first time is indeed difficult. expressing a feeling for the right girl, holding hands, first kiss, first job-interview, first day @ work, first love (difficult to forget :)).

Oddie and I agreed that the first time is always difficult, whatever it is. but when we've passed the first time, everything will be allright. as if we've had the template, next is easier.