in silence

there's something that often come when that i talk too much. often, i have the urge to shut my mouth, to hold the words. if the self has the mechanism to control itself, i believe this is the moment the mechanism works.

when i talk much, i am losing my self-control. i can't think right. i can't think divergent. i lose all the moments to observe. i can't analyze. what worst is i say much un-decent things, whether to somebody or among the crowd.

i forgot the power of silence. the power to hold the words; it was not meant to lie, but to control the self. i hate to lose my self-control. because when i lose my self-control, i lose control of my future.

in silence, i think. i know. i realize. when i talk much, i gave up listening. and i lost it all in the power of words; words that could kill my relationship. i gave it up.